
I had no one to give up on me
Only myself.
My fists and head, bloodied
Bashing that same wall.
Caged animals aren’t as distressed
As the evil I let prevail within my four walls.
Watered down attempted suicide
Each and every night
Though I wrote it off, on repeat.
Fully legal and encouraged
Never packaged as a means of death.
Like depressing the plunger on a syringe
I let that poison into my veins.
I brought that enemy into my home
And gave it the key to my soul.
I should have died a thousand times
And my family should have buried me.
But like a prisoner of war
Climbing out of his hole
I found the key to my shackles!
With the guard subdued, I took my freedom back.
On bleeding elbows and knees, I clawed my way out of oblivion.
Each step is cushioned by clouds.
If you ask, I can fly.
Almost one year clean after two decades of struggle.
And only I will ever know how sweet the victory is.
My life is back in my hands where it belongs
And I shall never lose its grip again.
-An ode to my nine months sobriety, February 8.
2 responses to ““Without Intoxicant.””
Well done, both on the feat and the beautiful words.
Thanks!!